reflections

I'd like to start this blog by saying that the older I get the more comfortable I am admitting that I don't know as much as I once thought...but I'm not stupid either.
My dad passed away on June 17th - it took me almost 14 years to find my dad and I was truly blessed to have 13 years with him - and I miss him every minute - but I'm trying to be strong for my mom and remember the good times.

Loosing someone you love sucks - really bad sucks, but if you are me, you believe that God has a true and pure purpose for each of us on this earth and when we are through with His purpose on earth then he brings us to spend eternity with him in Heaven.
Once when discussing this topic with my parents ...well I need to take about 3 steps back to introduce this story -
I ramble and sometimes get on tangents about meaningless topics, but people listen, so whatever, but I was ranting about how I think that when I make it to Heaven I'm going to ask God 3 questions - I don't know where I came up with this, I made it up and have said it enough that I have convinced myself it's trut - but I was disscussing my question (I have only settled on 1 thus far in my life) - which is 'what are misquitos for?' - I don't like a lot of things on earth; snakes, rats, roaches, etc, but I understand their purpose in the circle of life - misquitos are a perpetual mystery...so that's question 1.
In a response to my rant about misquitos Ken said "If I get to Heaven I'm going to go find a corner to sit in, under an umbrella, with my Charlie dog and I'm going to hope no one notices me...in case it's a mistake that I'm there."

I assure you it is no mistake he's in Heaven. Ken Hoots was an amazing man who taught me the best lesson dad's ever teach daughters...and that lesson is that YOU ARE WORTH IT.
Women are hard on themselves, I am, my friends are - but the truth is, we are all worth the love, and partnership and support of a lifetime partner.
I'm still waiting on mine - I just trust that God isn't done with me yet...or him.

Either way, I know it'll be worth the wait.